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I ask myself this question often. I have no idea what I'm doing in this life sometimes. There are a lot of times in which I realize that God is sovereign, but for the most part I can't understand why I'm still in school, why I'm still stuck working part time, floating in debt and often falling into the same old things that I've been burdened by for years. Proverbs 26:11 states: "Like a dog that returns to his vomit is a fool who repeats his folly." There is a song called "Wilderness" by the O.C. Supetones that is a great example of someone asking what this life is all about. It is an acknowledgement by the writer that it doesn't make sense, but God's way is so much higher than ours. I would say that the past 5 years of my life have been spent in this wilderness. Yea, sure I get it…God has a plan for my life….however; it takes a lot of effort for me to just have "blind faith." I suppose it's just selfishness on my part wanting to know what is next, without being patient. What I love about that song is that at the end of the song the writer says, "I have spoken too soon put my hand over my mouth I can't contend with You Your ways are so much higher And we pass through the fire that Christ endured before us When You were in the wilderness" This is the kind of fear that I want. To understand that God is larger than life, time, and especially any of us and to know that His plan is the best possible outcome is incredible. Thank God that I am not in charge of this life, because I would fail miserably which I so often do when I try to take things into my own hands. My prayer is this: "Jesus, I am nothing. Thank you for sacrificing your life for this filthy sinner. I know that your plan is the best plan, though it may contain misery. This suffering is nothing compared to the suffering that you endured for the sake of mankind. Forgive me for every stone I have thrown, every whiplash I have caused, every nail I have driven and every spear I have thrust into you. Lord, you are worthy of all praise and I exalt you." Do not fear! Our God will come; he will restore those he has ransomed. He'll make a path that's straight, our God will come.
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Sometimes it feels like whatever choices I make will inevitably lead to some sort of pitfall no matter how right they seem when I make them. It gets frustrating, and understandably so. Maybe the trick is to make the choices as best you can, trust in God, and when you fall in that pit, climb back out and keep trying to make those right decisions. Just keep trying, and move forward. That's the important part. Keep climbing out of those pits and moving on. This gets said alot, but I think many of us like to sit in the pit, or on the other side after the climb and just wallow a little....or a lot. Thanks for the thoughts. I needed this, as I've been sitting on the other side of that pit. Time to keep walking.
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